Walking with Jesus, Walking all the way!!!

It's a Rainy tuesday morning as i woke up at 6 am in the morning making my way to work. On my way to work, i was recollecting what God has spoken to me about when i was strolling with Him the previous night.

The New "Sanguine" Band aka bang band
The preparation of the new band suffered a major setback on monday when Sara spoke to me about all future development must be put on hold. The reason is due to the fact that two of the leaders of the band who happened to be Stinter with Forerunner must raised support fully as priority over any other involvement in Forerunner. When the news broke to me, i was kind of expected but did not expect that it would impact the band's scheduling for gigs so much. All gigs' planning must then be put on hold.

I took all the emotions and questions i have back to my Lord last nite. I prayed and asked Him why must this happened now, since it was clear that it's His will to set up this band at start. Then He showed me the light and i began to see it all.

1) I think that this is the time when God demostrated that He is the Lord of the band. Just as we all were excited about the future prospect of the band, the songs we wrote and how this band can be used to minister to pple, He stepped in and reminded us that He is the Boss. Yeah!!! He can set us up and He can also tear us down despite how talented we are. Afterall, this is His work. I was greatly humbled by this.

2) I think this time came in aptly as we can also learn to rely on Him as a band. My vision for this band is not only a jam band, but more of a caregroup, or a group of musicians that gather to journey life together. Pretty much like Simon, Pat, Boon Yong and Tony of 7days. As a band of slightly more than a month, we had gone thru many happy times of song writing and planning, now is the time that we should stand firm together as a band to go thru difficulties together.

3) I think He is wanting me to step up in leadership in this band. As one of the oldest member in the band, it's my responsiblities to be a "big brother", an example to the younger ones....Pointing the band to walk closely to God. After learning so much from Pat and Forerunner about being a music minister, it's time i apply what i have learnt in this band. So ple pray for me.

Sincerely, i have great faith in God that He may want to use this band to do great things for Himself. Given the talents that we all uniquely possessed, and how we piece together as a team, i think this band got potential. I am glad that Alvin has agreed to step up in leadership alongside with me after i spent time talking to him and casting visions together.

Church - Staying or leaving?
Since the day i submitted my "resignation" to the church leaders to withdraw myself from the music ministry that i have co-founded, I was given alot of time to think about things. I confessed that i was abit hot-headed and rash about my decision of leaving the ministry initially. Now when i looked back, i should have seek God for more clear direction before letting my emotion take the wheel and drive.

I prayed for forgiveness and also for the direction of whether i should stay or leave and join another church which i can grow in. Then God began to touch me again.

1) It's not easy to leave a church tat i have grown to love for 8 years, and He has convicted my heart for this church and never once that this heart has stopped beating. I think He may want me to stay in this church

2) As for the ministry, my removal will see that it will take place just as He wants it to be. And for my future involvement with the ministry, i think i will take up a supporting role. I will not re-join the ministry, but i can offer training to the musicians both spiritual and musical using the material i have gotten from Forerunner. Also, i can help the musicians to look for opportunities outside church for developments.

Companion in life
Well, i think it's time that i seriously think of this matter of finding someone who is willing to journey life with me. Even though i may have the most beautiful wife (AT200), i still think that it's time i be serious. I have not tot of this matter seriously since i broke up with the girl that i truely loved 5 years ago. I was recovering from the wounds that she had cut deeply for a long time. I am that kind of guy that will not fall in love easily but once fallen into, i will find it hard to fall out of it. So it took me about 3 year plus to fully recovered from the fall. The past two years were very enjoyable for me, as i really enjoy my singlehood serving God, and blessing others. I developed a heart to wanting to be a blessing to the people around me. I enjoyed doing music and gig with Forerunner. It is the most fun time of my life. Free!!!

But as i grow older, i think it's time to settle down. So i began to pray last nite for a companion in life, i prayed for someone who is willing to journey life together, sharing all joy and suffering together, building a piece of heaven on earth, to learn to love and be loved and of cos, walk together closely with God.

Well, toking to God is something that i look forward to do at the end of each day. Like someone so in loved, that u cant wait to meet the other half....