3rd day of the new year!!!

It's the 3rd day of the new year and yet i am feeling the same as last year!!! No feeling of any festive moods or so....and still harbouring the "inside want out feeling!!!" Wanting to do something to change my life now!!!

Was reading Dotz's blog and was reminded that i am turning a quarter of a century old this year. Well, if a Shinobi has only 50 years to live, then i have lived half of my life and yet nothing have i really accomplished!!! No career, no establishments, no direction in life or is it that there is too many directions that i have not decide on 1!!!

However, so what if i have many accomplishments? Will i be happy? Great Damiyo Oda Nobunaga said this before he died: " 50 years of glamourous life wasn't comparable to the clouds and stars in the sky...we are like dust on earth!!!" So what!!!???So what!!??

Afterall, there is only one thing worth doing in this world...and that is to know God lah!!! May sound cliche, but it's really wot i feel. Some evangelist once said: " Anything that has no eternal value, is eternally meaningless..." So what, if i am the king of the world? So what if i am the greatest musician? So what if i married the girl that i like? So what??!!

Was praying to God just now....Was telling Him while swallowing my bitterness, that He can dun give me anything that i want, He can dun even give a hack about it all....He can even take away everything i have and banish me into the wilderness....But there is one thing that I hope He wun take away....The one thing is Him in my life!!!
I can live without a career, without music, without the gal i love and lead a lonely life, without friends, without health, without everything....but i cannot live without Him....And He knows it's true!!!

"He gives and take away....my heart will choose to say, Lord blessed be your name.!!!"